My Best Qualities: Pushing the Limits of RAM with Tabs

I'm not really sure what it is that compels me to open every interesting link and leave it by the wayside to drag my computer down until the processor is rattling like a machine gun. Maybe if I step back and look at the state of order my room is in, I could psychologically make sense of it (I suppose that to say that I'm disorganised is a misnomer, if only because I'm not sure what a more severe term would be for my severe incompetence at neatness).

Day after day I find myself bored online and gravitate around to Reddit for a quick peek at whatever's new, opening every last link that interests me. But if the link doesn't lead to a picture of some dopey-face animal surrounded in a caps-locked veil of burly white words, I shelf it aside to read later. With time I have curated the perfect online library of HuffPo nonsense, political alarmism, and obscure databases of Beginner's Ainu until the favicons themselves have given way to a row of forgotten arcanum packed like blades of greying grass.

As we speak, I have three windows open and no idea what exactly I'm hoping to read later. With every command, my processor seems to increasingly resemble a T-Rex taking a dirt nap in a tar pit. Or, a tar nap? Or no nap, since he's ultimately just dying. I don't really remember why I thought this would be an interesting thing to write about. I'm not really sure why I'm still typing

LOVE, a rejected Machine of Death II story

I wrote this story almost exactly a year ago on 17 September 2011 for a last-minute entry to the second Machine of Death collexion which I only found out about a few hours before submissions closed. I wasn't really sure what to do with the story, figuring that at some point I'd maybe put it up somewhere. Anyway, here it is, exactly as it was submitted:

Waves of fire engulfed the city streets as its denizens spilled into the nooks of alleys and through broken windowpanes, muffling their wounded and tossing homemade grenades or returning fire with whatever dilapidated arms the resistance had been able to accrue. Remote-controlled jets swooped overhead, photographing the culprits, as soldiers marched in three-tiered rows spanning the street with automatic rifles and heavy bullet-proof armour. Tanks crawled behind them, belching canister shots in the direction of any perceived gathering of malcontents. The thunder of battle finally reached Beijing Laboratory №918.

‘Continue working!’ shouted the supervisor, as he slammed the windows shut. ‘This petty nonsense will be over by the end of the day with all of those traitors dead.’ and walked back into his office. Lili gave a shallow sigh and pushed her chair away from the computer, quietly rising and moving to the water cooler at the opposite end of the room. Dongfeng watched her from the other side of the terminal, and wondered if she had been taught by her grandmother how to move so gracefully. She should not have been a programmer, he thought, but a ballerina for the National Ballet. Lili turned with a cup of water and began making her way back to the computer. Dongfeng quickly averted his eyes to the monitor and tried remembering where he’d left off.

‘Are you at all worried?’ Dongfeng froze.

‘Huh?’

‘I’m sorry. I was asking if you’re at all worried about this uprising.’ Lili said. ‘They’re right outside our doors, and Shu is keeping us here to work on this project for the Government. Don’t you think that’s risky? We could die.’

Dongfeng tried not to look too long into her eyes. He cleared his throat. ‘Well, the news says that this should all be over by day’s end. We have the most powerful military in the world: I don’t think that some armed hooligans are going to have the chance to topple anything.’

Lili sighed again. ‘You’re not answering my question, though. Win or lose, there’s warfare erupting right outside our lab. One stray or calculated strike, and it could be any of us being reported on the news as a statistic.’ Ah, a woman’s mind. Dongfeng raced to think of something comforting to assuage her with.

‘If they’re right outside, that means that the Army’s there, too. They’ll knock the insurgents back before you know it, and we’ll be riding the bus home for dinner like any other day.’

‘Maybe you’re right,’ she said, and took a long sip of water before returning to entering data. But the skirmishes raged on outside, the screams and explosions echoing through the concrete walls. Various blasts shook the building, and the yelling began to take more authoritative tones. Soon the slacking workers found their Internet disabled. Shu seemed to be answering the phone every few minutes until he finally emerged from his office, wide-eyed and covered in an oily layer of sweat.

‘Alright, comrades, how far along are we?’ he ejaculated. Down the line, all the various scientists came up in a positive that the machine was ready, and only waiting upon the programme to begin any further testing. ‘And the programmers?’ Shu asked, ‘What’s your status?’

‘I think that we’re all pretty much ready,’ Dongfeng answered. ‘But some of the code I’ve been reviewing is a little sloppy; I’ve been reworking some of it.’

‘We don’t have time for that,’ Shu barked. ‘Just finish whatever you’re on right now and get ready to upload it to the machine.’

‘Mr Shu, just give me—‘

‘No!’ Shu shouted, ‘This has to be done today. Those phone calls were from presidential aides and various secretaries for the Party asking to know when we would be able to present this machine. If we can’t get this completed, we might as well kiss our careers and livelihoods good-bye.’

Dongfeng shrunk back into his seat. ‘Yes, sir. I’ll start uploading the approved components now.’

‘Good man,’ Shu said, and went back into his office just as the phone returned to ringing. ‘Hello? Oh, hello, uh, yes. Yes. Very soon. Today, even.’ The door slammed and his nervous diatribe muffled.

Dongfeng rubbed his eyes and cracked his knuckles. He was a programmer - he didn’t work well under pressure. That was supposed to end with school. What was this, Japan? It was all right. He had this...

A few simplifications here, a few specifications there... ugh, such terribly written code. How did these people get hired? Dongfeng pounded the keys as fast as he could with an eye on the digital clock in the bottom left-hand corner. Some of the code was just too ugly and convoluted. There was no way that the machine would be able to function with garbage like this; and an hour wasn’t enough time to clean up their mess.

‘Hey,’ Lili called from across the terminal. ‘Dongfeng! Do you need help? We can split up the work, if you need. It’s just reading, right?’

He could feel himself hesitating, but knowing there wasn’t time to entertain his perfectionism. She didn’t have as keen an eye as he, but then again, there wasn’t time for that. He sighed, ‘Um, yeah, sure. Hold on a second, I’ll transfer some of this to you. Just send it back when you’re done, because I’m the only one with authorisation to upload the files.’

***

Dongfeng suddenly felt Shu hovering behind him. ‘It’s been over an hour,’ Shu said. ‘This better be the last one.’ It wasn’t, but Dongfeng realised that his compulsion had gotten the best of him, and that he couldn’t let Shu in on it.

‘Yeah, of course,’ Dongfeng answered, and uploaded the remaining files to the machine. Within ten minutes, it was finished. He felt a mixed sense of relief and guilt.

‘Wonderful,’ Shu exclaimed. ‘Will one of you boys over there start her up so that we can see if it works or not?’ With the press of a button, the machine, which seemed to share attributes with a tower PC, came to life. It hummed and clicked, soon displaying a blinking curser. Dongfeng walked over and typed:

START SETUP.EXE

The machine beeped and began to click some more.

RUNNING SETUP.EXE

PROCESSING....

5%

6%

8%

As the percentage grew, it seemed to speed up until finally it had reached the 90s. Dongfeng suddenly realised that the room had become silent, as Shu and the other scientists carefully watched the machine come to life. The screen went blank, and then:

PROJECT FATE

INSERT FINGER TO DRAW LOT

‘So, who’s going first?’ Shu asked. ‘Anyone?’

‘How about you?’ someone called.

‘Shut up, Wu.’ Shu retorted. ‘As a matter of respect, you should know that it’s none of your business what the fate of your superior is.’ The room fell silent again. ‘Now come on, before I choose at random. Someone stand up and be a man. I’ll even put a good word in for you when this is delivered to the party.’

Dongfeng stepped forward. ‘I’ll do it.’

‘Good man, good man!’ Shu said, patting him on the back. ‘Now just stick your finger in that socket and you’ll feel a little prick. Then we’ll find out your destiny.’

Dongfeng did as he was told. He felt the quick pinch of a needle and the dull pain of blood being pulled from his finger, and then it was over.

PROCESSING.....

‘How long will this take?’ Shu asked.

‘I don’t know,’ Dongfeng answered. All of its components are military-grade. It should be pretty quick.’ The machine hummed between bouts of clicking and whirring. Dongfeng bit his lip in anticipation, wondering how it would all come to end. Presumably.

And then it hit him: Silence. It wasn’t just in the room, but in the streets as well. He looked to Shu, but the man seemed to not have noticed. Curiosity pulled Dongfeng towards the windows. As everyone else looked on, he traversed the floor to peer outside: it seemed as that everyone else had suddenly noticed as well.

A tank burned in the street, with blood and flesh encircling the fiery heap. Dongfend squinted to focus at the debris, looking for some sign of victory. Something stirred from behind the tank, a helmet – no, helmets. Why would the Army be taking cover? What had happened?

` And then it hit him.

‘Mr Shu, we need to lock and barricade the doors now.’

‘What?’ the man asked. ‘What the hell are you talking about?’

‘They’re in the building. They’re using it for refuge and hostages.’

‘What?’ The machine beeped and printed out a card. ‘Wait a minute now, your lot has been cast,’ Shu chuckled. He clicked his tongue and shook his head.

‘This is serious, everyone,’ Dongfeng said. ‘We don’t have time for beta testing, if it even works.’

‘You’re doubting Project Fate?’ Shu asked.

‘What? I—no, I—well, fine, what does it say?’

‘Love,’ Shu said, walking over to the windows and handing him the card. Everyone seemed to chuckle and murmur to each other. Dongfeng looked over to Lili, who smiled back at him in surprised amusement.

‘Well, that’s obviously not going to happen any time soon,’ Dongfeng said, ‘Now will you pay some attention to the serious issue at hand?’

‘I would, but it’s utterly ridiculous, Dongfeng, and you know it. You don’t think that the Chinese Army can overpower a few amateur rebels? Come on, now.’

‘Take a look for yourself!’ Dongfeng motioned out the window.

‘I plan on it,’ Shu said, and walked to the door. ‘There’s nobody out there but employees. This is a secret facility disguised as an apartment complex. Nobody is going to storm in here for hostages they don’t even know exist.’ He opened the door and walked into the hallway. ‘Hello? Any traitors out here? Oh.’ He walked back in followed by a masked man holding a semi-automatic weapon.

‘Don’t be alarmed. Stay calm and where you are. Nobody is here to harm you. We are only concerned with fighting our common enemy, the totalitarian regime of the so-called People’s Republic of China.’ Dongfeng slowly began backing up to rejoin the crowd. ‘Hold it right there, brother,’ the man said, bringing his nozzle up to face Dongfeng. ‘Let’s just take it easy for a moment, shall we? I don’t want to distrust you, but I don’t know where you’re going and I can’t take the risk.’ Dongfeng could feel his teeth grating together.

‘He’s harmless!’

‘Who said that?’ the man asked.

Lili stepped forward. ‘I did.’

‘Come over here,’ the man said.

‘Leave her alone,’ Dongfeng retorted. ‘Use me as a hostage. I’m the head of our programming department. I’m much more valuable.’ The man seemed to stop and consider.

‘Alright, fine,’ he said. ‘Let’s take the high road,’ and walked over to where Dongfeng stood. ‘No more sudden moves unless I say, alright?’ Dongfeng turned his head and spat in his eye, grabbing the rifle and trying to free it from the insurgent’s hands. The masked man punched him in the head and pulled the trigger, rapidly firing a barrage of bullets into Dongfeng’s chest. The scientists shouted and ducked for cover, Lili letting out a sharp cry. Shu stood motionless.

A tear rolled down Dongfeng’s eye. ‘Long live the People’s Revolution!’ he managed to whisper.

‘You sad fool,’ the man said, ‘this is the people’s revolution.’ A crumpled piece of paper fell from Dongfeng’s hand. ‘What this?’ the man asked, picking it up and examining it. ‘Love?’

‘It... it was how he was supposed to die,’ Lili sobbed. ‘He was supposed to die for love...’

‘Just what the hell are you people going in here?’ the man asked.

‘Project Fate,’ she replied, ‘A way to predict the deaths of every member of Government. It took us years to build that machine.’

‘Well,’ the man said, ‘I don’t believe in fate,’ and unloaded unto the machine.

Fashion is Fascism!

I remember that somewhere around late middle school to early high school, back when I thought that I would actually achieve something by 25, I had this idea to write a song about how Fashion and Fascism were virtually the same. Draped in a leather trench coat, sporting hair below my waist, and mixing various shirts my mom felt flattered by rotund torso with band tees and black jeans, I suppose that I may have been the perfect awkward candidate. It was to be missal to all teenagers and twenty-somethings imprisoned in the gyves of popular culture: an anthem for those fleeing its yoke. After all, weren't the Nazis' uniforms pretty sleek? Fashion! Checkmate.

I never fit into any particular clique in high school. Sure, I listened to Metal, had long hair, and wore a trench coat; but I liked to smile, be silly, and was religious, so I didn't really fit in completely with the Freaks. I loved the Internet, books, science fiction, and fantasy; but I was horrible at science and mathematics, and didn't really play any video games except for Age of Empires and GoldenEye, so I was not a solid nerd. By the end of my high school career, I was even on good terms with the preps and suburban thugs. The assortment of kids I did hang out with were similar, having nowhere better to sit at lunch or breakfast — not so much outcasts as loose ends. In middle school, we had come to name ourselves The Reject Table, and even drafted a constitution/manifesto of sorts, at one point going so far as to exiling a member to what we called The Reject Reject Table; the high school equivalent, however, was much more amorphous and carried no such fidelity.

I saw that the multitude formed a rigid construct of darkness, writhing blinded and motionless in its own labyrinth. We imposed self-segregation, and our balkanisation had led to docility, and the docility to the devolution of civilisation. The divide was clear, but I never had any real ambitions of saving them. The goal had always been to rage forth, assaulting their groomed and manicured sensibilities with a simple plan:

1. Form a band;
2. Get famous;
3. Get on an MTV awards show;
4. Play 'Fashion Is Fascism'.

They'd laughed at me because I was different, so now I would laugh at them because they were the same! I think that 14-year old me would be stupefied as to why such a simple plan never panned out. After all, how hard could it be to get famous? But I never foresaw the obvious: that I and those like me are the punchline of the human condition.

Perhaps there was something to my angst.

Osmosis

I am a bibliophile. In some circles, I suppose it might be more apt to say 'bookaholic', but I'm not an idiot. My collexion of books is so vast, that I have actually taken to building towers of new purchases atop my crammed bookshelves, awaiting their inevitable collapse upon the floor in a show of cracked spines, bruised covers, and smashed pages. I cannot seem to help but amass an amateur library in my already-cluttered bedroom. Usually it is under the auspices of promising myself that I will read the new addition with some ludicrous haste, deceiving myself as to the actual length of the serpentine queue coiling the empty or flat spaces. Or perhaps I am subconsciously trying to drown myself in a sea of paper.

I could wax on about the philosophical nature of my booklust ad infinitum, but I honestly don't care. My primary concern rests not with the quenching of my mania, but rather in the conquest of scriptora incognita (also, pretentiously riddling my writ with Latin phrases). Which brings me to the whole point of this post: people like me will easily procure a vast library of books only to realise that we cannot read them all, or are far too lethargic. However, what if there were a way? What if, by some freak accident at Burning Man, the gods of fire and dishevelment were finally appeased, and granted us the ability for Osmosis? Or, say, we lived in a far nerdier universe where Mountain Dew didn't rot your teeth out, Cheetos were equivalent to vegetables, and the Matrix existed (because, let's face it, all would would have to coincide for even one to fathom theory). Anyway, I propose the theory of osmosis in connexion to acquiring the knowledge of acquired books.

The main argument here will erupt in fiction vs non-fiction. Where non-fiction is meant for the strict absorption of facts, works of fiction are crafted in a way that the reader is entertained in the progressive unveiling of plot, etc. If the work is to be acquired by osmosis, then the the intricacies of crafting are jeopardised. To be honest, this can even extend to works of creative non-fiction, like the works or Ian Mortimer or GK Chesterton, that take the time to engage the reader on serious topics that would otherwise elicit a few hundred yawns. With the contraction or development of osmosis, the efforts of countless writers will be laid to waste, as reading in and of itself will be seen as a leisure activity at best, at worst the hobby of the bourgeois. Like the internet and recording media, pure information via osmosis will single-handedly take down the entire institution of the written word, which at the current time is going an evolution from the physical to the digital.

At some point, we will have to question the relevance of wordcraft itself in a world of instantaneous knowledge. It'll be relegated to the course position of hobby, drawn up in free time and passed to a group of select deniers of progress or enthusiasts.It may even become that prestige becomes tied to reading slower, so as to somehow gain more enjoyment from the work, like sipping aged brandy. Or possibly by whatever hipsters will be called in this parallel future.

So, in the rarest of chances that somebody ever asks, that is my opinion.

Post Scriptum:
You know what? Let's throw bookahol in there, too. It might as well exist in this new dimension of wild possibilities.

My Best Qualities: Carrying out Ideas

As you can all tell from the frequency of this weblog, I am a master of setting priorities and sticking to them. As a matter of fact, my original idea for this post was to just leave a blank post beneath the title; but I decided that that might be slightly too meta/pretentious/high brow, and likewise a cheap cop out. So instead, possibly months after my last post, I'm pulling together (somewhat) to lazily concoct another installation of my bland series.

Actually, that's all I've got. Sorry.

Tiny Tower: What hath Man Wrought?

All I was looking for was a simple way to pass the time with my iPhone. Having neither money nor credit card, I was relegated to perusing the free apps, searching for something more than an alley cat who'll parrot your every word with a speech impediment that makes him sound like an emphysema patient. I'll admit, it's not easy when it comes to video games: most of the apps that I've downloaded are for social networking on the go (Facebook, Google+, Twitter, Goodreads, etc), news, or a dictionary. If someone were to steal my iPhone and hack through the security code, they would probably pity my mega-exciting life of memorising word definitions and keeping up with archæo-linguistic discoveries while listening to reruns of WGBH Jazz Decades, and think about returning it before laughing at their foolishness and formatting my auxilliary livelihood.

Like any other normal human being, when I first got wind of Tiny Tower, I found the concept silly: isn't this just a vertical Farmville? I refused to even consider deigning such an activity. Not so much because my time is valuable (it isn't), or because I was low on space (free apps and pictures of my dog don't take up that much room), but because the mere concept of the game seemed to offend my matured tastes in digital hobby.

Ennui quickly drowned any inkling of connoisseurship and enslaved me to the pastime I once found pedestrian. I noticed that my friend had downloaded the game via the Orwellian iPhone game centre; I started remembering playing Maxis's Sim Tower and how interesting I had found it for about the span of two days. It became clear to me that by downloading this aberration, I could relive some nostalgic jiffy of time and possibly cure my first-world tedium in between actual tasks. What I was treated to was an authoritarian horror that unleashed its avaricious claws into the fabric of my daily schedule.

Upon opening the game/app, I was immediately manhandled into a tutorial with loose instructions binding me into premature failure. Somehow, I made it through by building a pizza parlour and residential apartments where my pixellated tenants could live and work as I pleased. I quickly put my first three tenants to work tossing dough and exchanging workout stories at the parlour, while the other 2/5 of my residents were scoffed at for their laziness and lack of entrepreneurial chutzpah as I constructed a second suite in which to recruit more unemployed lackeys of apparent welfare state of Tiny Town. Soon enough I finally got the hang of the game, installing a few more businesses at which I could employ my tiny wards. Then the honeymoon ended.

What I didn't realise is that the game perpetuated play into all hours of the day, whether one actively pursued it or not. Like a Poean phantasy, the constant chiming of re-stocked floors called me back to the game, groping for my iPhone in the dead of night in order to answer its lonely whimper, checking in on my sleepless 8-bit avatars. I could never be safe from this clingy application: it followed me like an incompetent stalker, uncouthly bringing attention to its loneliness any chance that I had to myself or was engrossed in another activity. It wouldn't have been so bad, had there been some end goal, some destination to which I was nearing, but it seemed that instead I had thrust myself into a never-ending cycle of construction and commerce, dragging my digital building into the heavens like some twenty-first century Tower of Babel whilst concurrently optimising the centres at which I would accrue the funding to continue my perverse mission.

I had to break free. I had to find a way out of this obligated hell I so ignorantly enrolled myself into. I knew what had to come next: deletion. I had to delete the game from my phone! but the ding, the ding, the constant ding - it called me to it, dragging me forever back to its addictive shores... until the day came that I was able to purchase a priced game, at which point my free hours became the seat of rope cutting, apocalyptic gardening, and catapulting birds into sundry debris. Yet Tiny Tower remains, quietly biding its time, taunting me through its app updates, waiting for curiosity to kill the cat.

My Best Qualities: Sleeping with the Door Closed

I can never seem to fall asleep calmly with the door to my room open. Any time I try to shut my eyes, this looming shadow of worry seems to pounce on me like a ravenous lion, and envelops me until I can groggily slip out of my bed and walk over to the door to close it. It doesn't have to be locked, just firmly closed. I don't know if this could be traced back by a team of psychotherapists to some childhood trauma that I involuntarily suffered from, or some kind of Jungian instinct that was ingrained by the forefathers because of some kind of spiritual connexion that we unknowingly share. I'm pretty sure that neither of those can be true, because what this really boils down to is two primary fears: homicide and zombies.

The first, I suppose isn't so irrational, since anyone could really just slip into my house and start a Murder Party with all the unconscious bodies just laying about. I guess that it couldn't be that hard. At least, not to me. I can't really think of anything I could do if I woke up to some masqued mouth-breathing former mechanic stretched over my body with Thanksgiving Turkey on his mind. After all, he has the knife or ax or serrated screwdriver and is ready to check my organs for life; all I have at my disposal are two pillows and building incontinence. I suppose that the second might give me a small window of surprise, in which I could take my pillows and force him into a comfortable nap - though I can't see many serial killers suffering from narcolepsy. It would just take forever to finish a murder; not even worth it in the end. Now, a killer with sleep apnœa is a whole other story: at least you could hold off your rest until after you've finished desecrating the body; and then you can just lie down in whatever least-bloody part of the bed you can find and take a short nap. But I'd be dead either way, so it doesn't necessarily matter too much to me in the end.

The second fear is zombies. Yes, I know: I'm buying into the zeitgeist! Way to feed memes with cliché deep-seated fears! Don't worry, my inner hipster has already done enough scoffing at my reptillian brain, where you all should feel comfortable in your passive disgust for my general character. However, this doesn't change the fact that sometimes I fear that my casually-ill mother will at some point shuffle into my room, and I thinking her just having woken up in the middle of the night, will attempt to engage her in conversation, at which point I will die. Well, maybe not die outright, but she will probably lunge at me, lacerating some part of my exposed flesh, at which point I will lock myself in the bathroom and eventually attack and cannibalise some downtrodden, unsuspecting survivors holing up in my house for protection. I don't necessarily mean to single out my mother, as my father also has a penchant for roaming the corridor in the middle of the night, so he could as easily lumber into my room and ruin my already-dwindling track record with life. Sometimes I'll even replay the scene in my head indefinitely from the time I lie down to when I slip off into whatever bland dreams follow horrific panic-induced plotting. I can never get to the part where I'm eventually overpowered and consumed by the very people who gave me life - mostly because I already know it'll end that way, no matter how many laundry bins and office chairs cascade into them.

It should come as no surprise, then, that as of today I have still not finished Max Brooks's Zombie Survival Guide, because every time I begin reading it, I starting getting nervous only a few pages in. I get similarly nervous watching or reading anything else zombie-related, but can otherwise finish the movie/show/book without problem, only realising as I lie down in my bed that the virus can hit at any time. Obviously, I realise that it's pure fantasy, that as of yet there is no such thing as that kind of infection; and even if there were, I should be able to take comfort in the fact that my slovenly person would not make it more than a few steps outside of my home in case of such an epidemic without being surely and quickly ended.

Adventures of the Human Water Closet, Episode 1: The Party

Book Review #2

Scott Pilgrim and the Infinite Sadness by Bryan Lee O'Malley
My rating: 5 of 5 stars

What 'Preciously Little Life' had in novelty, and where 'vs. the World' seemed to drag with trying to move the plot and establishing background, 'Infinite Sadness' craftily combines. The story effortlessly moves between drama and comedy, with ingenuity and nerdiness peppered along the way.


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Book Review #1

Our Thoughts Determine Our Lives:  The Life and Teachings of Elder Thaddeus of Vitovnica by Elder Thaddeus of Vitovnica
My rating: 5 of 5 stars

One of the most, if not the most, spiritually beneficial books I have ever read. Elder Thaddeus approaches the indulgence of sin from a seemingly unique and yet patristic angle, giving advice that is burning with love and exemplary of the meekness and kindness espoused by Our Lord.


The only negative aspect of this book was that it was virtually just a  collexion of quotes (though some were quite long), and this sometimes made it hard to read the book straight through. On the other hand, this configuration could in fact be spiritually beneficial, as it forces the reader (and gives them the ability) to stop and consider each individual quote.


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Hello, BLOGOSPHERE

I feel like I should begin actually blogging again, but to be honest, I don't know if I have much of anything to actually write about. Ah, crisis of the twenty-first century! I suppose that all of my time on Twitter has somehow destroyed my capability to communicate in anything past 140 characters, but maybe it's about time that I try.  Then again, though, I probably have nothing interesting to add to the world, and my weblog becomes part of the milliard of bytes in digital clutter that are clogging up the tubes of the Internet.

Oh well, I suppose. Here's to effort!

New Phone, New Problems

For whatever reason, it seems that the last phone I had decided to crap out on me and stop allowing the receiver to work. Basically, this meant that the few people who called me would hear me explaining this problem to them while they yelled 'CAN YOU HEAR ME? NOW? NO? HELLO? NOW?' as I dejectedly told them that I had no idea what they were saying, because I couldn't hear them.

After visiting the Verizon store, I was told that something inside the charge terminal (or whatever spacetalk term they used) broke off and now made my phone thing that I was using a Bluetooth. They also asked if I had tried using the Speakerphone option. Of course, being the infinite hub of wisdom that I am, I replied to them that no, I had not; nor had I even thought of it.

Needless to say, it worked; and for the next week, while my (free!) replacement was being shipped to me, fellow SUNY Buffalo students rejoiced in hearing my family, friends, and I shouting at each other through my confused little phone. Finally the new phone came, however, and oh how excited I was! It could make calls, receive calls, send texts, receive texts, all like my older phone, but newer and shinier (honestly, it is shinier)!

Around Tuesday evening, I decided that it would be a good idea to celebrate having an 8pk of Guinness by drinking one, so I pull out my travel mug (you know, in case I had to drink on the go), and fill it up. My ex-girlfriend had travelled home on train for the weekend for a family emergency, so I decided to text her to see how everything was and when I would be picking her up. It's about this time when my new phone supposed that it was parched.

Not even Michael Phelps could have pulled off so beautiful a dive (probably because he swims and doesn't dive); I was flabberghasted, unsure of what to do next. Some of the Guinness splashed out and soaked everything on my desk: newspapers, homework assignments, my laptop, and probably something else. After long deliberation (probably like a minute), I realised that I should be trying to save the phone.

Off I ran to the bathroom, Guinness in hand, yelling 'awshit awshit awshit awshit', pouring out all of it caramel creamy goodness down the sink to see my poor new phone convulsing in a show of lights that either signified Morse Code or a mini-rave. As anyone familiar with electronics would do, my first instinct was to pull out the battery, so it wouldn't short-circuit. The battery, however, was fiercely locked into the phone and refused to come out. Some finagling finally freed it, after a minute or two of struggle. It was somewhere during this that I yelled 'damn it!' about as loud as I could.

Returning to my room with the damaged replacement, and going to my Clorox wipes to clean off the desk, my roommate, who was this whole time reading a magazine, looks up and says, 'huh? did something happen or something?'

Today, after letting it dry, I've realised that somehow the keypad no longer recognises the B, H, or Y keys properly: B gets me a return with nmb, H a backspace followed by lkj, and Y now equals poiu. The frontscreen works on and off, with a white foam rising over it like a cararact; and the key colour went from bright white to a dull brown. Now that I think of it, some of my punctuations don't work, either. I am in no denial over the fact that the inside of my phone is probably covered by a syruppy residue that will haunt me for the next year or so.

All in all, it could be worse, but it's going to be hard texting. Tis is not a good waj to talk to people for a wole jear; trust me after a daie its gotten annojing.

Barack West?

I just had the strangest dream, wherein I was somehow privy to President Obama's friendship and we were discussing religion; but that's not the important part, because it was only a frame for the rest of my dream.

As it turned out in my dream, Obama was actually a very popular rap star, he was kind of like a Kanye West with Dirty South beats. Anyway, he used Hip Hop to fling himself into popularity while spreading his message, and also dabbed a little with politics on the side, until finally deciding to run for President. Of course (as in real life), he won and the rest was mostly the same as in real life, except that he had one last single to release. Well, maybe more like a remix... somewhat.

Basically, after he won the Election in November, Barack Obama released a very popular single that was dedicated to his son (yeah, I don't know what happened to Malia or Sasha; but his son was about Sasha's age - maybe it was just for the music video, but that would still be an awkward choice to make). In the music video, which played in my dream, Obama was walking to the door of his house to leave, rapping to his son about presidential responsibility, being a man, and about America - things of that nature.

Of course in my dream the song was such a hit that it was played non-stop, but for some reason upon taking the Oath of Office, the new President wasted to diversify. Apparently, the song carried very strong Christian undertones; and though not bad, Barack wanted to kind of bridge himself to people of other faiths in the video, too. However, from what I saw until I woke up, it stayed pretty Abrahamic.

Basically, as I said, Obama had walked to the door. From what I remember, in the original he opens it to paparazzi and then something with a limo and the White House or something. In the remix, he has invited over some prominent Black Jewish (he was too American looking to be a Beta Jew, but anything's possible, I mean Barack is related to a Black Rabbi) rapper, who is standing at the door with a large golden menorah and two half-naked girls behind him.

He lets out a Lil' Jon type of 'Yeah!!' and then the screen flashes with rotating 3-D text that says 'Barack Obama MIXTAPE Part 2', and the beat goes from a very intelligent groove to an actually Dirty South thing, with the guest rapper spewing flow like a tidal wave next to his car, crouching by his chrome rims. I think he raps about the struggles of Black Jews and how he hopes that this new Administration brings unity. Also, there is talk about having mad bitches due to his fame.

As his rap is coming to a close, he walks back up the steps to Obama's house, only to meet a new guest. This guest is from Britain, by his accent, but by the look of him, he is definitely originally from some part of Northern Africa (not just skin-wise, you racists, his garb was very traditional). They greet each other, and then ring Obama's doorbell. They ask Obama if they can come in, but the new guy says, 'but could you do me on favour?' 'Sure,' says the Jewish rapper, 'what's that?' 'Change the beat!'

Again 3-D rotating text 'MIXTAPE Part 3', but the beat totally changes to slow lowfi Dub. The new guy, it turns out, is an African British Moslem. The music video is all greenscreen, the rapper sitting like an imam and all around him are mosques and palm trees with the sky something like dawn or dusk (probably dusk, as it is party music). His singing is something like reggae style mixed in with adhan. Before the Moslem singer sits Obama in traditional garb, hearkening back to his days in Indonesia. It was an amazingly chill beat.

At some point, I think they would have wound back around to the original song, and definitely there were probably more artists to come, but I woke up, in a state of disbelief, and decided to share my dream with the Internet. Because I have no other life.

WTMFH

I honestly don't see myself as having a problem with listening to club music (c'mon, people, it's fun to dance to), and also I happen to listen to metal, which has it's good share of growling. However, this... eh..it's like Tokyo Hotel and My Chemical Romance listened to too much Lil' Jon and decided to start a rap group.

Honestly, for the sake of science, just fullscreen this:


It's not even the fact that it sounds horrible. It's just dumb. Either way, someone needs to lunge a bomb at their tour bus the next time they play a show. I think that's an instant qualifier for the Medal of Freedom.

GREATEST REVIEW EVER

shamelessly stolen from the Colorado Springs Independent

NOVEMBER 20, 2008

OMG! Best movie ever!*
Twilight

By MARYANN JOHANSON

The stakes are high (get it?) in this vampire romance.

Twilight (PG-13)
Carmike 10, Chapel Hills 15, Cinemark 16, Hollywood Interquest, Tinseltown

Everyone in the world should: See. This. Movie. And not just because Robert Pattinson is the best Edward there could ever be. Because it's not like this is only for people who read Stephenie Meyer's book, Twilight. It's, like, an actual grown-up movie, all serious and important.

Like, you can tell how beautiful the vampires are supposed to be because everything gets slow and sparkly when they walk by. Or, sometimes, when other important things are happening, the music gets real loud and Edward looks like he's gonna cry. Those are the best moments ever, because then it's like the director, Catherine Hardwicke, can't even move the camera from him. He's that gorgeous.

Twilight is all about Bella, who's a junior in high school, so she's pretty grown-up already, LOL! She's smart and beautiful and super-nice and everybody loves her at her new school. She's also really deep and thoughtful, which you can tell because she talks to us through the movie, and tells us her feelings and explains things that are happening. It's like you want to be her best friend, and you wish she was, because she's so cool and perfect. She's not even stuck up about being so pretty! (Bella is played by Kristen Stewart, who is also very pretty and I bet super-nice, too.)

You can tell this is a grown-up movie because of things like this: When Bella says in her voiceover, "Edward was a vampire," it totally sounds like something from a Jane Austen book. That's literature. And when Edward — who is the totally cute vampire teenager she meets at school, I forgot to say that — tells Bella, "We shouldn't be friends," it's like it's because they're in different groups at school, the vampires and the regular kids.

It's like, with everyone else being so nice to each other, the vampires are like the mean kids in a real school. I can't remember the word when something stands in for something else, but that's a literature thing, too.

Oooh, now I remember the word: ironic. I think that's when things are different than you expect, and it's surprising and also makes a theme. Like how one regular kid who doesn't know that Edward is a vampire says to Bella, "He looks at you like you're something to eat." But Edward would never do that. It's ironic because Edward is supposed to be dangerous, but he isn't at all!

He says all romantic things to Bella, like, "Your scent, it's like a drug to me." (Sigh!) But Edward is not scary like other boys, who want to, you know, do stuff. I don't mean in the movie — everyone is super-nice to Bella! — but, like, in RL. Edward can control himself, unlike other boys with "vile repulsive thoughts." That is in the movie! But don't worry, Edward rescues Bella from boys like that. He's like her knight in sparkly armor, LOL! Even though he's a vampire. That's deep.

It's, like, so totally romantic! And it's exotic, too, because Bella's Indian friend Jacob is here. He has Indian wisdom for her about vampires and stuff, and it's so cool. Of course we all know what happens with Jacob in the next book, and OMG, the next movie please!

*If you're a dreamy 12-year-old fan.

— scene@csindy.com

I Finally Did It

I SHAVED AND I LOOK HORRIBLE

You can compare this photo to the one over in the left-hand column. I decided that it would be a good idea for me to shave and see what's been lurking beneath the surface of my beard for the past four years or so: it was a bad idea. Basically, I have come to learn that I no longer own a neck.

This is good for me, however, as I feel that it is the perfect fodder for motivation to lose weight. I've been avoiding creating a work-out schedule for the past while, because I have felt that school work is more important. Although, time-wise, being a college student, schoolwork is of the utmost importance, seeing now the Jabba-esque monster I have evolved into, I must have health advance guard with much haste. Who knows how long I will survive? Hearts can only take so much, and honestly, I must be a nauseating sight to behold.

I mean, I realised I was fat before: who could avoid having a huge gut staring at them? yet, since it has grown over time, I suppose I have been accustomed to it. By shaving, I created a drastic change that rightfully has startled me, not to mention the blight of having something like that hideous double-chin droop from my neck. There is something horrifying more unsettling about affect to the face than any other part of the body (besides genetalia, I suppose). I'm hoping this unsettling action was a step in the right direction....


On the topic of President-Elect Barack Obama, I can only say that I have never been prouder of being an American: he has advanced the movement of Martin Luther King Jr to exactly that, which I believe the Reverend aspired: equality for all people. Honestly, I think I will reserve it for another post in the morning; I don't think it's appropriate to mix such topics and my behemoth size and a Black President of the USA.